Chapter 3: This Feeling Was Never Directed at Me

"So you've known Chi Xu since the first grade of primary school? You've known each other for a full twelve years? Do you like him too? No, but then why is Chi Xu a year ahead of us?"

Lin Suye was so shocked that her mouth gaped wide, as if she was about to swallow a plump goose egg.

At the confession scene, Jiang Yuan didn't say a word. She silently glanced at him, placed the umbrella on the nearby table, then grabbed Lin Suye and left directly.

Lin Suye had too many questions in her mind, so Jiang Yuan simply explained her relationship with Chi Xu.

"Uh, I don't know. Maybe he skipped a grade in high school. Actually, I've always known that he dislikes me. He's always so rude when talking to me. That time when he left, it was because he was fed up with me. He left without a word. I should have guessed it earlier. It's my own fault."

"Let the past go. I have nothing to do with him anymore." Jiang Yuan stared at the ginkgo leaves fluttering in the wind not far away and said softly.

...

In the evening, Jiang Yuan and Lin Suye went to the classroom for evening self - study.

They arrived at the classroom just in time before the school bell rang. Only the empty seats in the first row were left in the classroom, so they had to sit there.

"I heard that the Student Union will come to recruit new members tonight. Yuanyuan, have you decided which department you want to join?" Lin Suye whispered with her head down.

Jiang Yuan smiled and shook her head. She turned her phone to silent mode, took out her vocabulary book and started to memorize words.

Lin Suye sitting beside her was stunned.

The freshmen who had just stepped into the university after getting rid of their senior - three identities still hadn't lost their sense of novelty. They were excitedly playing with their phones with their heads down and chatting with their classmates from time to time.

Jiang Yuan was immersed in the world of words. The classroom was filled with whispers, and outside the window was a pitch - black night with a full moon hanging in the sky.

Someone knocked on the front door. The class monitor walked out and quickly came back. Standing beside the podium, the monitor said, "The Student Union will come to recruit new members later. Those who are interested can listen."

After saying that, the monitor nodded to the person standing at the door.

A handsome young man leaned against the doorframe of the classroom, exuding a lazy air from his bones.

He lazily lifted his eyelids, and his delicate features were tinged with a smile. "Sorry to take up your time tonight."

The boy's voice was extremely pleasant, clear and lazy, landing on people's hearts unexpectedly.

Jiang Yuan's hand that was holding the pen paused. She hung her head without looking up. She stared at the densely packed words, but couldn't remember any of them.

The sound of light footsteps gradually approached, as if walking step by step towards her heart. As he got closer, a faint, fresh smell of pine after snow wafted into her nose.

Jiang Yuan took a deep breath, her heart fluttering. She held the pen even tighter.

It seemed that she was greedy for this familiar smell.

After all these years, he still liked to use this brand of body wash.

He was indeed loyal.

It's just that his loyalty had never been for her.

Saying that the past was over was just self - deception.

The moment the boy stepped into the classroom, his eyes were fixed on Jiang Yuan sitting in the front row. This time, he looked at her for a longer time and more carefully.

Maybe because they hadn't seen each other for a long time, the girl's hair had grown longer, black and silky. Her chin seemed to be sharper, not the chubby face she had when she was a child. Under the white incandescent light in the classroom, her skin was getting fairer, almost transparent, as if it would break with a light touch.

Chi Xu looked down further and saw the girl's arm resting on the desk. A faint pain welled up in his heart, like a kitten scratching around.

Jiang Yuan had changed a lot. She had become more beautiful. The T - shirt on her body was loose, and the exposed arm was extremely slender and delicate, without the plumpness of her childhood.

Chi Xu pursed his lips. The USB drive in his palm was sweating, sticky and uncomfortable, just like his heart.

The short few steps seemed extremely long. Chi Xu turned his head and walked to the podium. The class monitor enthusiastically turned on the equipment and helped him insert the USB drive.

"You're Senior Chi Xu, right? A member of the presidium of the Student Union. I heard that you're going to run for the next president of the Student Union. Come on."

"Thank you."

The clear voice faded away.

With a "thud", Jiang Yuan put down her pen and looked up.

She happened to meet the boy's inky eyes, only to find that he had been looking at her.

Jiang Yuan was slightly stunned, and her heart inexplicably accelerated.

The young man was wearing a fresh and clean white shirt. His eyebrows were good - looking. The light shone through, simply outlining his broad shoulders and narrow waist.

Her cheeks blushed slightly. Jiang Yuan glared at him and lowered her head in a hurry, then picked up the pen again and scribbled lines on the draft paper.

Chi Xu gave a soft laugh and stood still. That lazy air seemed to be taken back, and his temperament was completely different.

He stood in front of the podium, projected the PPT, and began to introduce the basic situation of the Student Union.

His low, cold voice slowly fell, and his long, beautiful hand lightly touched the white curtain.

The two people sitting in the front row heard it most clearly.

"I don't know what's wrong with the vice - president. He used to dislike participating in such activities and hated others only looking at his face. It's strange that he took the initiative to come today."

"Maybe it's because he's going to run for the president, so he participates in more activities."

The two members brought by Chi Xu whispered at the door.

Jiang Yuan's eyelashes fluttered slightly. She slowly raised her head and looked at the high - spirited young man beside the podium.

He stood upright, with delicate features. Wearing a white shirt and black pants, he was neat and tidy. He was very eye - catching on the stage. Even the rare full moon in the sky couldn't compare to the charm of his eyebrows.

Chi Xu spoke very well. His speech speed was neither too fast nor too slow, and he went straight to the point. He introduced the subdivided structure of the Student Union in great detail.

"By the way, Yuanyuan, you said that Chi Xu used to dislike you and left without a word. Look at how good - looking he is. Do you want to get revenge on him?" Lin Suye nudged her elbow and said seriously.

Jiang Yuan turned to look at her, looking puzzled. "Huh?"

"Didn't he abandon you back then? He abandoned you once, and you abandon him once. Then you'll be even. Let him experience how you felt when you were abandoned back then."

Jiang Yuan: "..."

"Look, how many girls in our class have been staring at him. It won't be a loss for you to date him." Lin Suye racked her brains to come up with some bad ideas. "It's also good to keep him as a vase just to feast our eyes."

Jiang Yuan: "Forget it. It's not the same as before. Even if I wanted to, I don't know how to abandon him. We're not kids anymore."

Lin Suye tilted her head and sized up Jiang Yuan.

Jiang Yuan was undoubtedly beautiful. She had a face the size of a palm, long and curly eyelashes, fair skin, and was wearing a white long dress. She was the image of a first love in boys' eyes, a beautiful white moonlight.

"Yuanyuan, you haven't been in a relationship for so many years. Don't you still miss him and wait for him? You can try to date. Maybe you'll find it's not right and completely let go."

Jiang Yuan rolled her eyes at her and stubbornly said, "I don't miss him. Stop making wild guesses."

On the stage, Chi Xu was calm and composed. The cold white incandescent light shone down from above, making his eyelashes clearly visible.

Jiang Yuan propped her chin with one hand and stared at him seriously, as if she wanted to make up for the three years of not seeing him.

But somehow, the words Lin Suye had just said lingered in her mind. The more she wanted to get rid of them, the more they stuck.

Five minutes later, Chi Xu finished his speech. Looking down, he saw Jiang Yuan staring blankly at him. His beautiful black eyes were filled with smiles.

He cleared his throat and said, "This is the basic situation. If you have any questions, you can ask them now. I'll answer them one by one."

A girl sitting in the third - last row quickly raised her hand.

Chi Xu lifted his chin. "Please."

The girl was straightforward and not coy at all. "Senior, I heard that you're a year ahead of us, and your appearance is the best among these two batches of students."

"Get to the point." Chi Xu still smiled, but most of the smile in his eyes faded.

"I want to ask if you have a girlfriend or someone you like!"