Jian Jiaojiao saw Sheng Sibai again when she was accompanying Feng Qing to the mall to choose gifts for the Ji family. From afar, she spotted Sheng Sibai. The only thought in her mind was to avoid being seen by him and stay away.
After leaving and hiding, she simply chose to leave, avoiding any chance of running into Sheng Sibai. Afterwards, she didn't tell Feng Qing about this because she didn't know how to bring it up.
Later, she was caught red - handed by Sheng Sibai at the Ji family. Although she didn't admit that she was the 'Kristen' Sheng Sibai was talking about, Sheng Sibai didn't believe her lies.
Sheng Sibai ruined her dress. She had no choice but to leave with Sheng Sibai wearing his coat.
That night, they ended up in bed again.
Jian Jiaojiao knew what she was doing. She despised herself but was also deeply trapped.
She clearly should have hated Sheng Sibai, but she still lost her head and had a relationship with him. She thought she was so cheap. Even when Sheng Sibai said to her again and again, "I miss you so much" and "I love you", she only felt that she was being stupid.
Before dawn, she looked at the sleeping Sheng Sibai beside her. The more she had been infatuated with this face in the past, the more she loathed herself now.
She stared at his face for a long time and finally made up her mind to leave.
After leaving the hotel, she immediately went home to pack her things and left for the United States without any hesitation.
She didn't inform Feng Qing until she was on the plane. She just said she had something to do but didn't know how to explain it.
She didn't know how to tell Feng Qing about her stupid past, nor did she want to tear off the protective shell covering that scar. So when Feng Qing asked, she didn't tell the truth.
She hid in the United States for a long time, choosing a place in the opposite direction from Mark Manor, as if this way she could draw a clear line from Sheng Sibai.
Jian Jiaojiao originally thought that in order not to meet Sheng Sibai again in the future, she might hide in other places and might not be able to stay in one place for long.
This thought persisted until Feng Qing's father passed away.
Feng Shengyang had always been kind to her, but when he died, in order to avoid the possible meeting with Sheng Sibai, she was so selfish that she didn't even attend Feng Shengyang's funeral.
She didn't dare to expect Feng Shengyang's forgiveness but often lived in such suffering.
Sheng Sibai also came to look for her. The neighbor told her that a man always appeared in front of her door. Later, she saw him several times.
She didn't intend to show up and see him, so she had to ask someone to tell Sheng Qingran this news. Since Sheng Sibai had to deal with the work of Shengshi now and couldn't stay outside for long, as soon as Sheng Qingran urged him, he left after a while.
However, Jian Jiaojiao, who was full of suffering in her heart, couldn't find the so - called peace. She hid in an unknown small town in the United States. Although she avoided everyone, she still couldn't avoid the suffering in her heart.
Not long after she arrived at Feng Qing's house, Sheng Sibai found her. Although she didn't know if Sheng Sibai had installed a monitor on her so that he could always find her so accurately, just seeing Sheng Sibai's face would make her think of herself in the hospital, forced to have the child aborted while still in a coma.
What had she done wrong? And what had the child done wrong?
Even when Sheng Sibai stood in front of her, confessing and begging for her forgiveness again and again, hoping that she could give him another chance to make up for her, she didn't waver.
— "Miss Kristen, this was sent by Mr. Sheng after he signed. If you have no other objections, we will perform the operation on you."
The cold words echoed in her mind again. She found it hard to breathe, as if sinking to the bottom of the sea.
After Feng Qing came back, she accompanied Jian Jiaojiao during her low - mood days. Jian Jiaojiao also thought that she shouldn't keep it from Feng Qing and make Feng Qing worry about her, so she told Feng Qing some parts of her past that Feng Qing didn't know at all.
Naturally, Feng Qing considered her feelings and quickly took her back to the old house, no longer letting Sheng Sibai bother her.
When she was alone in the old house, she thought about many things. In fact, in her not - so - long life so far, many people had appeared.
Among so many passers - by, she had only fallen in love with Sheng Sibai.
She was not considered a good person in others' mouths. Maybe all she had suffered from Sheng Sibai was retribution.
That child who never got to see the world might have had no fate with her, or maybe even God thought she was unworthy of being a mother.
By this time, she didn't even want to blame Sheng Sibai. She just kept thinking whether she had thought too much at that time. She shouldn't have indulged in the false affection fabricated by Sheng Sibai. It was her own fault for taking it seriously.
When she knew that Feng Qing was pregnant, she was really happy. She had once looked forward so much to her own child being born into the world, and she also looked forward to Feng Qing's child. But Feng Qing's child was also gone.
That nightmare seemed to come back again. She seemed completely unable to get rid of that gloomy memory. It seemed that she had no other choice.
During the time when she accompanied Feng Qing to recuperate, her state was no better than Feng Qing's. And after Feng Qing gradually calmed down, she told Jian Jiaojiao that the 'Mr. Sheng' who agreed to abort the child in her belly was not Sheng Sibai but Sheng Qingran.
The hatred in her heart didn't disappear, but she did feel as if a burden had been lifted.
At least, the child wasn't abandoned by his or her biological father. If the child was in heaven, he or she wouldn't hate her for not doing well enough.
But she still hated. She just pretended to be okay in front of Feng Qing. In the end, she couldn't convince herself to stay in the city with Sheng Sibai and Sheng Qingran.
She still chose to leave. The phone number that had been changed several times and had received countless calls from Sheng Sibai was discarded again, just like those past events that were destined to be forgotten and could only be thrown away.
When Feng Qing got married, she still came back. She was happy for Feng Qing and sad for herself. She couldn't tell whether the tears she shed at the wedding were entirely for Feng Qing or partly for herself.
Sheng Sibai didn't attend the wedding. She felt both relieved and disappointed.
During the new - couple's oath, she seemed to see Sheng Sibai.
It was just a fleeting moment. She didn't see clearly. He didn't seem to be standing. She didn't know if there was something wrong with his body again.
She didn't know what made her do it, but she still walked towards the place where that figure disappeared. When she was about to go further, someone called her. She just turned back for a moment, and it seemed that the end of the corridor, which had just had a figure, became empty.
The bell of the auditorium rang. White doves flew by outside the window. There was no one at the end of the church corridor, only a blinding white light that seemed to be able to swallow everything.
She didn't know what she was expecting, but for a moment, her heart trembled violently, as if the blood stopped flowing and the heart stopped beating.
She looked at the end of the corridor again and seemed to see heaven.