The most speechless one was Qin Chengyao.
He thought he already knew enough, but he never expected that hearing these words from Ji Siyue's mouth would cause him such harm and shock that he would never have imagined in his life.
Before this conversation started, it was he who wanted to comfort Ji Siyue, but after these words were spoken, it was she who needed to comfort him.
But did he deserve it?
From beginning to end, it was all on her shoulders alone. He was just an ignorant and angry man who resented her, wanted to take revenge on her, and finally even delusionally tried to force her.
"So you stayed abroad for such a long time because of this?"
Ji Siyue nodded silently. "I was afraid I couldn't face you calmly, so I went abroad to calm down for a while... Now it's almost okay. Although I still feel a bit uncomfortable in my heart, but I can..."
"On what grounds?"
Ji Siyue said, "Huh?"
Qin Chengyao looked up at her. "On what grounds do you do this?"
...
Inside.
A rustling sound came over, and the connection of the Bluetooth earphones was interrupted.
At the same time, several people all took off their Bluetooth earphones. Obviously, they could no longer hear anything.
Everyone involuntarily cast their eyes on Zhu Zhiyao.
"Old Zhu, did you know about the things that you used to be with her?"
Zhu Zhiyao's eyes seemed a bit red. He took a deep breath and it took him a great deal of effort to say word by word, "I thought I could protect her and keep her from harm, but I never thought it would all be just a delusion of mine. I thought I had never really walked into her heart from beginning to end, but I never thought it would be an even more disgraceful situation... I didn't even know what had happened to her. I'm so ridiculous."
It turned out that sometimes, the so - called deep affection that everyone thought they had was not even needed by the person being protected.
The so - called infatuation was just self - deception.
"Click!"
The door was opened, and Qin Chengyao and Ji Siyue walked over one after another.
Qin Chengyao went back to his own bedroom alone, slammed the door shut, and no matter what others said, he refused to come out again.
Ji Siyue stood helplessly outside his door. After a while, she even started to cry.
Others didn't know how to comfort her, so they just silently went back to their own rooms, leaving the last bit of dignity to Ji Siyue.
After standing there for a while, Ji Siyue received a call and then turned around and walked out.
The street outside was cold. Ji Siyue was only wearing a single layer of clothes. When the wind blew, she felt that the hairs on her body were about to stand up.
She heaved a heavy sigh, took out her phone, and wanted to call someone.
But when she took out the phone, she saw that the battery was only 1%. She watched helplessly as the phone turned off and she could no longer contact anyone.
She had walked out two or three miles and was already out of the villa area. She sat down by Taihu Lake and watched the scenery for a while.
Recalling the conversation in the garden just now, Ji Siyue only felt extremely complicated and uncomfortable in her heart, just like having eaten ten pounds of rice at one go, feeling choked and stuffy.
Qin Chengyao had said, "On what grounds? On what grounds do you bear all the pain alone? You come back smiling and still want to be with me. You think you don't care anymore, but do you think I can not care?"
After all, this was not something that one person could handle alone. Ji Siyue had spent nearly two months getting over it, and Qin Chengyao might need even more time.
Watching the person he loved deeply suffer so much harm right under his nose, and realizing that all the previous misunderstandings were actually brought about by his own biological father, how could he not collapse?
I'm afraid that now he felt that he didn't even have the right to love himself.
All of this was just a vain dream. Ridiculous and sad.
Ji Siyue couldn't help but look up at the sky and heaved a long sigh. "Qin Chengyao, Qin Chengyao... What on earth should I do with you?"
Later, Ji Siyue even laughed, but the bitterness in this smile was something that others could never understand.
Obviously, she was the most aggrieved one from beginning to end. Why was he more miserable than her?
Ji Siyue couldn't figure this out.
Because it was too cold, Ji Siyue sat there hugging her legs and fell asleep after a while.
In a drowsy state, Ji Siyue seemed to feel someone gently hugging her.
She opened her eyes and saw that it was actually Qin Chengyao!
It must be a dream. He was still angry with her. How could he come to find her?
"Qin Chengyao, you're really an asshole." Ji Siyue thought it was a dream, so she just said everything that was in her heart completely. "I spent so much time getting myself out of this, but I never thought that you didn't even care in the end. Don't you think I'm ridiculous?"
The man didn't say a word, just looked at her with a sad look in his eyes.
Seeing him like this, Ji Siyue just felt like crying even more.
"Why can't I even have my heart's desire in my dream? I clearly don't want to see you frown or be sad... I originally wanted to bury these things in my heart for a lifetime... But you asked me. I thought we could share joys and sorrows... It turns out that it was all just a vain dream of mine in the end."
After saying that, Ji Siyue closed her eyes again.
During the following sleep, she seemed to fall into a warm embrace.
She slept for a long time. Ji Siyue felt that all the bones in her body were going numb.
When she opened her eyes again, the sky was already getting dim.
There seemed to be a person sitting beside the bed, a very depressed person.
The moment she saw him, Ji Siyue knew that the things she had said before were not said in a dream, but were said in a daze.
But why did he find her and bring her back?
Didn't he hate her?
"Old Qin..."
Qin Chengyao leaned forward slightly and said gently, "Huh?"
"By now, I can't tell who should forgive whom between us... Let's just look forward together, okay? I'm really tired. Life is too short. In a blink of an eye, I've been going around with you for so many years. I don't have the energy, time, or desire to start over with someone else. So how about just making do with me? Hmm?"
These words even seemed a bit humble. Was it right for Ji Siyue to say so?