Xiang Yutang furtively opened the second page. The dates in the notebook seemed to start from the latter half of their relationship.
Zhu Zhengchu wrote about his daily life with her every day. For example, what delicious food Xiang Yutang had cooked for him that day, or if anything had happened during their rehearsals. Xiang Yutang couldn't help but curl up the corners of her mouth while reading.
But soon came the stage of their cold war. Xiang Yutang began to hesitate whether to continue reading. The previous part still held some of her beautiful memories. But she was afraid that if she read on, she would see Zhu Zhengchu's sarcastic remarks, like laughing at her for being so silly and only thinking about getting married. Even after all this time, these were still the wounds in her heart.
After taking a deep breath, she still mustered up the courage to continue reading.
Zhu Zhengchu didn't write anything on the day they quarreled. From the next day on, his notes appeared.
The next day: Annoyed.
The third day: So annoyed.
The fourth day: Don't know what to do. Don't even want to go for the recording.
The fifth day: Feel like what I said that day might have been too much. Should I call Tangtang? But I'm afraid she won't answer me.
Xiang Yutang's expression softened. So he had actually thought about taking the initiative to make up.
The sixth day: Something suddenly came up at home, so I had to cancel the shooting of the talent show temporarily. I want to tell Tangtang, but I don't know how to start. I wonder if Tangtang will misunderstand me.
Xiang Yutang pursed her lips. So he didn't leave to avoid her at that time.
In the following days, most of Zhu Zhengchu's notes were about how much he missed Xiang Yutang. He wanted to go to her but was too proud to do so.
Until the day before the finals, the content in Zhu Zhengchu's diary suddenly increased.
"Tangtang called me today. I was really overjoyed at that moment. I felt like I was flying. I had so much to say to her, but it was already very late, so I asked her to go back and rest first. After Tangtang makes her debut tomorrow, I'll talk things out with her properly. She's a really nice girl, and I don't want to let her down. If possible, I hope our relationship can last. I'll stop writing for now. I have to pick out what to wear to see my Tangtang tomorrow~"
Xiang Yutang inexplicably felt like crying. If Zhu Zhengchu really thought so at that time, why did everything turn out like this?
After the finals, Zhu Zhengchu didn't write in his diary for several months.
Three months later, he started writing again.
The first sentence was, I regret it.
"Actually, I like her much more than I thought. Why didn't I realize it?"
The following days' records were rather chaotic. Zhu Zhengchu probably didn't know what he was writing either. Every day, it was just things like I miss her so much or I wish I could go back.
After reading to the end, Xiang Yutang closed the notebook and put it aside. She raised her head to keep the tears from falling.
After calming herself down for a while, Xiao Lin sneaked up again. "Sister - in - law, are you okay..."
Xiang Yutang let out a long breath. "I admit, this notebook touched me."
A smile appeared on Xiao Lin's face, but it didn't last long. Xiang Yutang spoke again. "But things have become like this, and there's nothing we can do. It can only be said that God didn't want us to be together. Zhu Zhengchu should be done with the check - up. I'll go and see him."
Xiao Lin watched Xiang Yutang's back and shouted unwillingly, "But! Sister - in - law, you never used to believe in God! You only believed in yourself, didn't you! Why can't you clear up the misunderstandings!"
Xiang Yutang stopped in her tracks but finally didn't turn back.
Xiao Lin was right. She didn't believe in God. She just didn't want to try anymore. On the night they broke up, she was so desperate that she even thought about committing suicide. But in the end, she thought of her father, Zhuo Ziyu, and Ying Zikui. Falling in love was too risky. Even though she was a person who loved taking risks, she couldn't afford to gamble.
After a while, when Zhu Zhengchu's condition was confirmed to be stable, she would leave. She might have to find someone to replace her in the crew. If she stayed any longer, she didn't know what would happen.
When Xiang Yutang got to the door of the ward, Zhu Zhengchu had just finished his check - up. The doctor was reporting Zhu Zhengchu's condition to Zhu's parents. When Zhu Zhengchu saw her, he showed a smile.
"You're here! Hug!"
Xiang Yutang pretended not to see his outstretched arms and walked to Zheng Wanyin. "Auntie, Uncle."
Zheng Wanyin looked at her with a smile. "Tangtang, thank you for staying here all this time."
"It's okay." Xiang Yutang forced a smile.
Zhu Yuan glanced at Zhu Zhengchu. "I don't think he has any problems. He might as well be discharged now. There's no need to waste money here."
Zheng Wanyin gave him a reproachful look and pulled him away, leaving the space for Zhu Zhengchu and Xiang Yutang.
Even though Xiang Yutang was cold - shouldering him, Zhu Zhengchu still talked to her cheerfully.
"Tangtang, why do you look so pale? Did someone bully you? Who is it? Shall I beat them up for you? Don't be unhappy." Zhu Zhengchu tried hard to lean towards her.
Xiang Yutang absent - mindedly said, "I'm not feeling well. I want to go to bed early today."
She didn't dare to look at Zhu Zhengchu now. Every time she saw him, she would think of the things in the notebook.
Zhu Zhengchu looked at her worriedly. "What's wrong? Doctor!"
"There's no need to call the doctor. I just have a headache. Can I go back now?"
Although Zhu Zhengchu was a bit reluctant, he didn't want to see her suffer. "Then go back first. Get a good rest. Contact me immediately if there's anything."
"Okay."
Xiang Yutang packed her things and left.
She had rented an apartment near the hospital. After she got in, she threw herself on the bed and didn't want to move at all. Her mind was full of the past with Zhu Zhengchu.
The impact of the notebook today was too great. She didn't know if she could get over it.
At this time, Zhuo Ziyu called her. Xiang Yutang said listlessly, "Hello, baby."
Zhuo Ziyu was a bit worried. "What's wrong? You sound like you're not happy?"
Xiang Yutang hesitated for a while and finally decided to tell the truth. "Ziyu, I feel so useless. Just reading a notebook has made me a mess. My mind is full of things about Zhu Zhengchu."
Zhuo Ziyu was stunned for a moment. "What notebook?"
"It was shown to me by Zhu Zhengchu's assistant, Xiao Lin. It records his thoughts after we got together. It always makes me feel that he liked me. But if he liked me so much, why did we quarrel and break up?" To be honest, Xiang Yutang couldn't remember clearly what had happened on the night they quarreled. She didn't know when she started to force herself to forget. She only remembered that Zhu Zhengchu's words seemed to express his dislike for her. So what on earth had happened?