Chapter 47: All My Love Was in Vain

Don't I have any dignity?

I've never been so humiliated.

I'm afraid I'll be looked down upon by Cheng Yu. But his ever-understanding and virtuous girlfriend said to my dad, "If I have to say there's something of mine in Yinyin's hands, I think it's my heart."

Me: "..."

My dad and my brother: *an old man looking at his phone on the subway meme*

I can't take it anymore.

I'm done for.

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My dad has seen a lot in his life. Although he found it cringy inside, he remained calm on the surface. "Since you two love each other, all I can do is to wish you well."

Cheng Yu asked my dad sincerely, "Uncle, are you not satisfied with me?"

My dad brought out his old-fashioned ideas again. "It's not that I'm not satisfied. It's just that you're too good for her. Just because you like her doesn't mean your parents will accept her. After all, your families are not well-matched. Whether you two can get married in the end is still a question. But young people nowadays pursue freedom in love, and parents can't stop them even if they object. I just hope that if you have no intention of marrying my daughter, don't waste her time. A girl's prime years will be wasted on you. If you say you're not suitable for each other after a few years, aren't you ruining her chance at happiness?"

I've heard this kind of reasoning since I was a kid. I've protested, but my dad is stubborn. It's hard to change an old person's mindset, and I can understand that.

But when I saw my dad lecturing Cheng Yu with this theory, I felt so embarrassed. I said, "Dad, things are different now. In the past, women had no independent means of support and had to rely on marriage and men, so they weren't respected. People used to say that a girl should find a good man while she's young, or she'll be an old spinster no one wants. But now women have received higher education. We're capable of supporting ourselves. We can live well without a man. We can't judge women by their age. So what if a woman is 30? She's not going to die! The older a woman is, the more experiences and knowledge she has. She'll become more charming! My aunt has been single for years. She doesn't have to serve a husband or raise kids. At over 50, she looks like she's in her early 30s! She's living a happy and carefree life. How cool is that!"

My dad frowned and scolded me. "Why do you have to learn from your aunt? Don't you know how many years she's been called an old spinster behind her back? How awful! How can a girl not get married? She'll be so lonely when she gets old. Who's going to take care of her when she can't move? Other people have their sons and daughters by their bedside. What about you?"

I didn't dare to speak up before, but now I have the courage. "I can hire a nurse! They'll take better care of me than my kids!"

My brother said, "Wasn't there a news story the other day about a nurse feeding feces to a paralyzed old man?"

Me: "Zhou Wubo, can you just shut up!"

My dad said, "Even if you don't get married, you should have kids. A woman isn't complete until she's had a child. If you don't get married, who are you going to have kids with?"

I was so angry that I finally dared to talk back to my dad. "Aunt has been single all these years and hasn't had kids. Is she missing an arm or a leg? How is she incomplete?"

My dad was furious. "So neither of you has any intention of getting married? No, I don't agree! I won't allow my daughter to fool around with a man without getting married!"

Me: "Fool around with what?"

Fool around?

How can falling in love be considered fooling around?

Cheng Yu suddenly said, "Uncle, please calm down."

Me: "Well, Cheng Yu, you'd better go back first. I haven't sorted things out with my dad yet. His ideas are outdated, and I have to correct him. Times have changed, but he still clings to the old ways."

My dad scolded me. "Look at your attitude!"

Cheng Yu held me back and said to my dad, "I'm dating Zhou Yinyin with the intention of spending the rest of my life with her. This is my first relationship, and I don't know much about it. I didn't know that some people date without the intention of getting married. I can't understand them. All I can do is to be sincere when it comes to marriage."

My dad sighed heavily and said sympathetically, "Mr. Cheng, all I can say is that you've met the wrong person."

Me: ???

Cheng Yu: "Uncle, what do you mean?"

My dad: "Don't you see Zhou Yinyin's attitude? She has high standards and hasn't even considered marrying you."

Me: !!!

My dad is really good at breaking up couples!

I'm speechless.

Cheng Yu pursed his lips. I guess this was his way of holding back his emotions.

He said, "I know Yinyin loves me very much, and I love her too. Maybe my love came too late, and she lost some confidence during the process of waiting and being disappointed. So she's afraid of marriage now. I can understand that, and I'll wait patiently for her to adjust her mindset."

My brother: "… Yu Shen, you're already so deep in love?"

In a split second, he seemed to have realized something.

Then he ran back to his room crying like a girl, shedding tears for his male god's unrequited love...

Me: "..."

Sigh.

There's such a big misunderstanding.

The truth is the exact opposite!

My dad said, "Mr. Cheng, I can see that you have the right attitude. I might as well be honest with you. I'm very satisfied with you. But it's obvious that you two need to have a good talk about your views on love and try to reach an agreement."

Then he glared at me fiercely. "Don't have any irresponsible thoughts."

Cheng Yu said shyly, "Uncle, you don't have to worry. Yinyin said you made a rule that we can't be too intimate until we've been dating for three months. We're still in the probation period, and I won't do anything without her consent."

Me: !!!

Why are you bringing up the three - month agreement?

And the rule about not kissing for three months was just an excuse I used to fend off that playboy!

It was also an excuse to avoid you when you were considered a "playboy" before!

As expected, my dad snorted and said to Cheng Yu, "Mr. Cheng, I'm only telling you this because you seem like a nice guy. I've never made such a rule."

Cheng Yu: "..."

My dad: "This is just an excuse my daughter came up with to reject others."

Me: !!!

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Defeated by the big boss! The flirtatious girl has lost!

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Cheng Yu left my house with a gloomy face. I quickly trotted after him on my short legs. "Cheng Yu, Cheng Yu, listen..."

Cheng Yu, acting like a heroine from a Qiongyao drama, said, "I don't want to hear it."

I hesitated to speak.

It was really hard to explain.

From his perspective, I've "loved" him for a long time, even before he fell for me.

Logically, I should love him more deeply and be eager to get married.

But in fact, I've only been in love with him for about a month.

Moreover, there are so many negative news stories about marriage in society these days. For normal young women, getting married is no longer something to look forward to.

It means having to consider many practical factors, which will ruin the pure and lovely thing that is love. My feelings for him are just starting, but everyone is already asking me when I'm going to get married...

They're forcing me to come back to reality from my dream and clearly realize how big the gap is between Cheng Yu and me, how different our conditions are, and how mismatched we are!

After getting in the car, Cheng Yu said he wanted to go out and get some fresh air.

I could only say to him, "Thank you for understanding me and speaking up for me in front of my family."

Cheng Yu: Angry.

Me: "Well, I'm not afraid of being laughed at. I feel inferior around you. You're so outstanding, and I can't even come close to you. So I've been working hard lately to narrow the gap between us. Can you wait for me a little longer? At least until I've made three... no, ten more steps forward in my career. Then I'll be more confident and seem more worthy of you."

Cheng Yu: Still angry.

He never plays music in his car, but today he played a song on repeat.

Jolin Tsai's "Rewind".

【I'm fed up with waiting for your so - called plans.】

【When will the future you promised finally come...】

Cheng Yu: Pursing his lips.

【You always tell me to be good and plan for the future slowly.】

【But my tears keep falling...】

Cheng Yu: Holding back his tears.

【I'm standing outside the door of happiness but can never get in.】

【The hurt you've caused me is really hard to let go!】

Cheng Yu: Looking up at the traffic lights at a 45 - degree angle.

I clenched my fists and trembled all over. "… Brother Yu, don't be like this. Brother Yu?"

Cheng Yu gave me a cold and heart - broken look and gritted his teeth. "All my love was in vain."