"Lu... Yan?"
Before Shen Qingfeng could finish his words, he felt Lu Yan exert force. A strong smell of alcohol assailed his nostrils. In an instant, Shen Qingfeng felt dizzy. The next moment, he was firmly pinned down on the bed by Lu Yan.
"!" Shen Qingfeng looked at Lu Yan, who was propping his hands on either side of his head and looking down at him. For a moment, he had the illusion that he was being stared at by a fierce beast. Lu Yan's hair had already come loose. His long, ink - black hair drooped down, tickling Shen Qingfeng's cheeks. The alcohol on his breath intertwined with Shen Qingfeng's.
"Let me go!" Shen Qingfeng crossed his arms on Lu Yan's chest and pushed against him hard. Suddenly, Lu Yan on top of him moved. A long, slender leg forcefully squeezed between Shen Qingfeng's legs.
"You...!" Shen Qingfeng was extremely ashamed and angry. What was wrong with Lu Yan? Was he sobering up or completely drunk?
"Shen... Qingfeng." Lu Yan's eyes were blurred. He was obviously still drunk. His dark pupils seemed to suck Shen Qingfeng in completely. He slowly lowered his head. His lips, slightly flushed from the alcohol, were getting closer and closer to Shen Qingfeng's face.
Shen Qingfeng wanted to push him away, but Lu Yan was as strong as an ox when drunk. With his slender arms and legs, Shen Qingfeng couldn't push him at all. He gritted his teeth and said in a deep voice, "Lu Yan! I'm warning you! Don't touch me!"
It seemed that this warning had been heard by Lu Yan. His lips suddenly stopped when they were just a hair's breadth away from Shen Qingfeng's face. His body was stiff. He just maintained this forward - leaning posture, firmly covering Shen Qingfeng.
Seeing that he stopped moving, Shen Qingfeng secretly let out a sigh of relief. He gently pushed Lu Yan's firm chest, coughed, and said, "Get up quickly."
Unexpectedly, Lu Yan didn't move. His bangs hung down, covering his deep and dark eyes. His lips moved slightly, as if he was saying something.
Shen Qingfeng was stunned. "What?"
Suddenly, Lu Yan's body trembled violently.
At that moment, Lu Yan seemed to feel that nothing mattered. His mind was in a complete mess because of the excessive alcohol. His sluggish thinking didn't give him much room to think. He only knew that the person beneath him was the treasure he held dear in his heart, the forbidden land he had always hidden deep in his heart, and the person he had never dared to covet.
But even if it was just a little bit? Lu Yan thought groggily.
Just a little bit. He only craved that much.
It was like the precursor of a long - suppressed strong emotion on the verge of explosion. The high - concentration alcohol seemed to be the best catalyst.
Lu Yan's eyes were dazed. He suddenly buried his head, resting his chin on Shen Qingfeng's shoulder socket. Then, like an octopus, he used all his limbs to firmly hug Shen Qingfeng under him.
How could Shen Qingfeng have known that he would do this? Being "entangled" by someone was not a pleasant feeling. He struggled for a while. When he found that he couldn't break free, he bit down on Lu Yan's shoulder.
The sudden pain made Lu Yan grunt, but he didn't let go. Instead, he tightened his arms again, as if he wanted to press Shen Qingfeng into his arms.
"Lu Yan! Let me go!"
"Shen Qingfeng, Shen Qingfeng..." Lu Yan suddenly leaned close to his ear. The hot air sprayed on the base of Shen Qingfeng's ear as he spoke. Lu Yan's deep and sexy voice made Shen Qingfeng shiver slightly, as if he had been struck by an electric current.
The next second, he heard that deep voice continue, "I like you."
Shen Qingfeng froze.
Even though he had always known this, when these words finally came out of Lu Yan's mouth, Shen Qingfeng clearly felt shocked.
Not for anything else, but because in his long life, this was the first time he had heard someone say "I like you" to him.
In his previous life, no matter how entangled he was with Xia Chuli, Xia Chuli had never said these words to him. In his memory, all the sweet words had been said by Shen Qingfeng. He had also begged Xia Chuli to say those words, but every time Xia Chuli would quietly evade him in some way, or simply silence him with a kiss.
Now that he thought about it, the closest thing Xia Chuli had ever said to him was when they were holding hands, sitting side by side facing the turbulent Bian Palace. Xia Chuli had said, "Qingfeng, I only have you. Don't leave me."
That was enough, he thought.
At that time, Shen Qingfeng's request was very simple. For this sentence from Xia Chuli, he would go through fire and water for Xia Chuli without hesitation. As long as he could stand by his side and as long as he still wanted him.
But now, it all seemed so ironic.
"I like you. Shen Qingfeng." Lu Yan kept muttering, as if he wanted to pour out all the emotions he had held back for more than a decade. He got brave and gently touched Shen Qingfeng's earlobe with his lips. After seeing that Shen Qingfeng didn't resist, he devoutly placed a kiss on his earlobe.
"I like you... like you..." Lu Yan seemed tireless. He just kept saying it. He finally said what he had been holding back in his heart after getting drunk. Even though he couldn't tell whether it was reality or a dream now, he just wanted to use the most simple words to clumsily show his true feelings.
Tears moistened Lu Yan's eyes and slid down his cheek past that sexy tear mole, but Lu Yan didn't notice. He continued to gently kiss Shen Qingfeng's earlobe - he didn't dare to cross the line. Because he had told himself that he only craved a little bit, just a little bit.
By his ear, Lu Yan's clumsy and affectionate confession was like the strikes of a bell hammer, constantly hitting the bell in his heart.
The smell of Lu Yan mixed with the strong smell of alcohol rolled Shen Qingfeng in like a surging tide. For the first time, he clearly and definitely felt Lu Yan's feelings for him. It was different from the detached observation in the flames and different from the rumors in the marketplace. It was real, passionate, affectionate, and desperate.
Some hot liquid slowly welled up in Shen Qingfeng's eyes. He gently softened his body and let the warm liquid slide down from the corner of his eye.
Once upon a time, he had also treated another person so deeply. He had wanted to see the same feedback of feelings from that person more than once. But fate was cruel. God had played a big joke on him. When his feelings were already completely exhausted, he saw it in Lu Yan.
Just like himself back then.
So desperate, so heart - rending.
Shen Qingfeng trembled and gently grabbed Lu Yan's shoulder. The person on top of him still kissed his earlobe while shedding tears. He pinched Lu Yan's shoulder and asked in a soft voice with a sob he didn't even notice, "Lu Yan, what do you like about me?"
The latter seemed not to hear. He still pressed his lips tightly against Shen Qingfeng's earlobe, his voice as faint as a mosquito's but continuous, "Like you... like..."
"Fool..." Shen Qingfeng showed a smile uglier than crying. He didn't know if this word was for his past self or for Lu Yan now.
The moon rose above the willow branches, the stars appeared, and the insects chirped.
In the quiet side hall, Lu Yan's voice got smaller and smaller. Finally, he simply lost all his strength and just lay on top of Shen Qingfeng. Lu Yan's strong muscles were like a big brick, making it difficult for Shen Qingfeng to breathe.
Seeing that the drunk's emotions had calmed down a lot, Shen Qingfeng took a few deep breaths and struggled to escape from Lu Yan's embrace. But Lu Yan after getting drunk didn't care about anything. His two arms were like iron chains and couldn't be pried open.
"Get up quickly!" Shen Qingfeng said to the drunk, not knowing whether to laugh or cry.
Lu Yan was still groggy. He drunkenly shook his head and continued to bury his head on Shen Qingfeng's shoulder without saying a word.
"You stink!" Shen Qingfeng said.
Lu Yan still didn't move.
Shen Qingfeng said bluntly, "I don't like people who stink."
This sentence seemed to turn on some switch. After hearing it, Lu Yan suddenly propped up his body, grabbed the edge of the bed, and climbed out of it. He held on to the armrest of the bed and trembled as he tried to stand up.
Shen Qingfeng was amused by him. "What are you doing?"
"Take... a bath..."
"Can you take a bath in this state?"
"Yes." Lu Yan said firmly. He suddenly stood up, but the next moment, he fell heavily to the ground with a thud.