Su Mu said, "You don't need to console me. I know I'm emotionally unstable. Right now, only you and the Emperor respect think I'm ill."
However, Feng Lingtong shook her head seriously.
"You are ill. It can be regarded as a mental ailment, and it's quite serious."
"Me?"
"Stretch out your hand. Let me take your pulse."
Su Mu carefully stretched out his hand, and Feng Lingtong took his pulse.
Afterwards, she said, "Your body has suffered a lot in recent years. Your internal organs are all damaged to varying degrees. But these can be treated. It's your mental ailment that's a serious problem."
"Am I really ill?"
"Yes."
Su Mu's eyes reddened slightly.
No one could understand his feelings.
Maybe no one else would be so happy to be told they were ill like he was.
Feng Lingtong had encountered patients like this before.
In her opinion, Su Mu's performance was already excellent. At least, despite his condition, he still carefully coped with the outside world and wanted to benefit the common people.
"Thank you."
When Su Mu retracted his hand, he frowned inadvertently.
Feng Lingtong immediately had a premonition of something bad.
She quickly grabbed Su Mu's hand again and pulled up his sleeve to his upper arm. The crooked scars and knife marks on it were simply shocking.
Just now, she had thought things too simply.
Su Mu's symptoms had reached an extremely serious stage.
This man was desperately trying to live a sunny life, but he just couldn't fight against the huge fear in his heart.
He must have had the thought of suicide in his mind more than once, right?
Su Mu quickly pulled down his sleeve.
"Don't let these sully your eyes."
As a doctor, Feng Lingtong naturally couldn't stand by and watch someone die. She was different from Feng Zhan. Her belief was that all sentient beings in the world were kind - hearted at their core.
Her kindness was innate.
"Su Mu, you're ill, very seriously ill."
"Xiaotong—"
"Have you already had the thought of suicide? Or have you already attempted it but failed in the end?"
Su Mu smiled bitterly. "Am I thinking too much?"
"Why do you have such symptoms?"
Su Mu closed his eyes, and then a painful and unforgettable memory slowly emerged.
When he was very young, he had a happy and harmonious family.
At that time, he got along very well with a boy named Dongfang from his second uncle's family.
Su Mu also had a younger sister, who was lively and cute.
The boy from the Dongfang family was named Dongfang Yuxi. Although Su Mu was a few years older than him, it didn't hinder their communication at all.
Dongfang Yuxi had the talent of a great general and was highly regarded.
His father was the grand tutor of the Qingyun Kingdom at that time.
And Su Mu's father was the prime minister of the Qingyun Kingdom.
Su Mu always thought his father was an upright and good official.
One night, Su Mu went to the Town God's Temple and heard someone inside conspiring to secretly kill the entire Dongfang grand tutor's family.
He didn't dare to make a sound, thinking it was just some mountain bandits coveting the grand tutor's family property.
Anyway, the guards of the Dongfang family were all from the Su family, so these people definitely couldn't break into the Dongfang family's courtyard.
But despite this, Su Mu still felt uneasy.
Seeing his father chatting and laughing with the grand tutor like close friends, he finally felt relieved.
On that day, Su Mu invited Dongfang Yuxi out.
He thought his father definitely wouldn't deal with the grand tutor's family. Even if the bandits took action, by inviting Dongfang Yuxi out, at least Dongfang Yuxi wouldn't have to see the tragic scene of the slaughter.
But the result proved that Su Mu was wrong.
That night, when he and Dongfang got home, they saw that the entire grand tutor's family, over a hundred people, were all brutally killed in the mansion.
Even Dongfang Yuxi's newborn younger brother in the swaddle was stabbed through the body with a knife.
That scene had a huge impact on the young Su Mu and Dongfang Yuxi.
What happened later made Su Mu even more devastated.
After the Emperor respect's investigation, it was discovered that the Su family had colluded with people from the Jianghu and deliberately relaxed the defense to kill the entire grand tutor's family.
The reason was that the grand tutor had discovered that Prime Minister Su had embezzled money when building the dam, so the dam was unstable. If there was a flood, it would easily cause a disaster.
The amount of gold that Su Mu's father had embezzled was an astronomical figure.
It was equivalent to the entire Qingyun Kingdom's income for five years.
In such an important matter related to the people's livelihood, he actually dared to embezzle money.
The grand tutor didn't expose Su Mu's father. After all, they were old friends. So the grand tutor first found the prime minister, hoping that he could turn back in time and take out the embezzled gold and use it where it should be.
When they finished talking during the day, both of them were smiling.
Su Mu's father also promised to take out the embezzled gold and assured that he would never do such a stupid thing again.
The grand tutor believed him.
But that very night, Su Mu's father bribed a Jianghu organization and took the lives of the entire Dongfang grand tutor's family.
When he saw that scene, Dongfang Yuxi's face instantly turned deathly pale.
He staggered step by step towards the grand tutor's side, calling out for his grandfather, father, mother, and younger brother again and again.
Actually, at that time, Su Mu basically already guessed the whole thing.
But he didn't dare to say it. He was afraid that if he did, Dongfang Yuxi would rush to the prime minister's mansion, and then there would really be no descendants of the Dongfang family left.
Finally, Su Mu knocked Dongfang Yuxi unconscious.
He handed him over to a red - dressed girl.
That girl often followed the Emperor respect, and Su Mu had seen her a few times.
"The Emperor respect can help him."
"I know. You should handle these aftermath matters properly."
Later, it was Su Mu who personally investigated this matter, and it was also him who personally sent his father to the execution platform.
When his father's head was chopped off, it rolled to Su Mu's feet.
Those eyes were still glaring at Su Mu fiercely.
From then on,
his younger sister completely severed ties with Su Mu. She set off alone on the road to the Eastern Wilderness.
Su Mu also lost his father.
He fell from being the son of the prime minister to a rat scurrying in the street. Everyone said he was the son of a thief.
Fortunately, he later met the Emperor respect. Yan Ruyu brought Su Mu back to the palace, taught him to read and write, and handle political affairs. Only in this way did Su Mu reach his current position.
After telling these things, Su Mu looked at Feng Lingtong painfully.
"Bu Ran can help you erase your memory. Why don't you erase that past?"
"I don't want to. I deserve to bear this. I owe the Dongfang family. Everyone can forget about this, but as a descendant of the Su family, I shouldn't forget."
Compared with the young Dongfang Yuxi, these sufferings were really nothing.