Perhaps it was during her time in the ghost realm.
It made her truly experience what it meant to suffer worse than death.
People always have a great many insights when they are on the verge of death.
These words.
She should have wanted to say them a long time ago, but no one would listen to her.
Indeed.
Who would be willing to listen to such a wretched self rambling on about these messy things?
"Have you ever done anything you regret?"
Xia Wanning asked Luo Qiu.
Luo Qiu was taken aback.
She didn't want to answer at first.
But then she heard Xia Wanning say, "You seem to care about Ye Ling a great deal. Do you have some kind of feud with her? Is that why you've been so scheming to harm her?"
Luo Qiu's teacup dropped to the ground.
It made a clear sound.
At this moment, Luo Qiu's expression was extremely sorrowful.
Feud?
Never.
Why did she want to harm Ye Ling? Because she was an eight - phase spiritual pharmacist, and her soul was worth the souls of many others.
"This is the thing I regret the most."
Luo Qiu blurted out this sentence unexpectedly.
The person on the bed just smiled faintly.
"I thought the thing you regretted the most was making me end up like this."
Luo Qiu didn't even lift her eyelids.
"It's because your mind was unstable. You didn't know what you truly wanted. With just a few words from others, you believed them and killed the person who was closest to you."
"Senior seems to know what she wants."
Luo Qiu was stunned.
Yes.
What right did she have to blame Xia Wanning?
Compared to Xia Wanning, how was she any better?
It was precisely because she knew too well what she wanted that over the years, she had committed so many evils and harmed her sister so many times.
Once.
Twice.
Thrice.
She thought.
Only her sister was qualified to be by that Yan Ruyu's side. What virtue did Zhao Shuning have?
She thought.
If she took Zhao Shuning's life, she would surely obtain a good soul.
She thought.
She was doing it for her sister.
So even if her hands were stained with more and more blood, she wasn't afraid. It was she, the sinner, who would bear the blame. As long as her sister could come back to life, her own life was originally given by her sister.
But.
Everything.
Was because she was too self - assured.
That was why she had harmed her sister again and again.
Suddenly, both of them fell silent.
Neither of them said a word.
After a long while.
In the air.
Luo Qiu said, "Then what's the thing you regret the most?"
Xia Wanning's eyes were dazed.
"There are too many things I regret. I killed Ji Qinglin with my own hands. He was the nicest person to me in the world besides Ye Ling. The things I regret are countless, but what's the use? The root of all the evil is you people."
At this moment, Xia Wanning.
Seemed rather old and worldly - wise.
Perhaps.
She had truly seen through the affairs of this world, which was why she was able to say such things now.
And what about Luo Qiu?
She had lived for so long.
Rushed about for so long.
Planned painstakingly for so long.
One day.
When she saw the person she had yearned for day and night, it was as if God was playing a joke on her. All the things she had been pursuing became phantoms at this moment.
It seemed.
She suddenly lost the courage to live.
Lost the motivation to keep chasing forward.
Luo Qiu stood up.
She fed Xia Wanning some water.
This was probably the first time she had talked so much with Xia Wanning.
The two of them actually had something in common, they just had different pursuits.
After Luo Qiu finished feeding Xia Wanning the water.
She stood up.
She left the room.
She leaped onto the rooftop.
That night.
Her sister had stood right here.
It was also here in Chaozhou that her sister had discovered her whereabouts.
She found a place to sit down.
Luo Qiu felt the wind blowing.
She looked up.
The sky was so blue. Occasionally, a few white clouds drifted by, looking so leisurely and carefree. There were quite a few bird nests in those tall trees.
The birds flew in and out, catching insects as food for their chicks.
On the street.
People came and went.
The peddlers shouted loudly.
From time to time, someone would step forward to ask the price.
All of this.
Looked so beautiful.
And so simple.
But for Luo Qiu.
It had been so many years since she had carefully felt such simple beauty.
She only remembered.
A very long time ago.
In the academy, her sister who had saved her, taught her carefully, and was extremely gentle to her.
When was the last time she had been on the street?
Luo Qiu couldn't remember.
But she remembered the scene when she first went to the temple fair with her sister. She had given her sister a token and hung the plaques of herself and her sister on that big tree.
She wondered.
If that big tree still existed?
Thinking about the past.
A smile appeared on Luo Qiu's face involuntarily.
She slowly lay down.
Bathing in the sunlight.
Living in the sunlight was really comfortable.
On a whim.
Luo Qiu took off her black robe, revealing her originally peerless face.
This face.
Originally belonged to her sister.
Whenever she went out and was about to do something bad, she would always put on another fake face, in order not to disgrace her sister.
"When will I be able to live as freely as you all?"
Luo Qiu closed her eyes contentedly.
Perhaps.
There would never be another chance.
She had done so many wrong things.
She couldn't even forgive herself for these things.
Even if her sister couldn't bring herself to do anything to her, she would have no face to live on.
How could Luo Qiu tolerate herself for having hurt the sister who loved her the most with her own hands?
"You seem to be in a good mood."
The sudden voice.
Made Luo Qiu suddenly break free from her memories.
She immediately opened her eyes.
She stood up.
Her manner.
Suddenly became extremely restrained.
"Sister—"
Her voice was a bit soft and waxy, filled with anticipation and guilt.
The person who came.
Was exactly Zhao Shuning.
Zhao Shuning sat down beside Luo Qiu.
She said, "Don't be so nervous."
"I—I just—"
"Did you bring Xia Wanning here?"
Luo Qiu nodded hurriedly.
Zhao Shuning smiled faintly.
She actually stroked Luo Qiu's head as naturally as before.
Luo Qiu was stunned.
A very beautiful smile appeared on her face.
"I still have many things I want to ask you."
After Zhao Shuning said that.
Luo Qiu suddenly put away her smile and immediately knelt down in front of Zhao Shuning.
"It's my fault. I've harmed you, sister. Whether you were Ye Ling or Zhao Shuning, those things were all done by me. I know I'm unforgivable. Sister, after I've done what I should do, without you saying anything, I'll surely die to atone for my sins."
Zhao Shuning said, "I've known about these things for a long time."
Luo Qiu was stunned.
She looked up.
"Get up first."
"Sister has known for a long time? You don't blame me? Then what are the things you want to ask?"
Zhao Shuning stared at Luo Qiu.
"As long as Xiao Qiu knows, she'll tell me, right?"
Luo Qiu nodded affirmatively.
"Of course, as long as I know."
Zhao Shuning helped Luo Qiu up.
Looking into her eyes seriously, she asked, "I want to know, was it you who was responsible for the matter of the souls? If it was you, then where did you hide such a huge number of souls?"