There was quite a commotion outside the Venetian blinds. However, perhaps due to the hasty preparation, the place where the photos were supposed to be displayed properly was printed in a strange way. Now the whole company could see this, and everyone must be wondering who the ugly thing printed on it was.
"I... What's wrong?" Sheng Yan looked aggrieved. He originally thought Feng Qing called to praise him, but instead, he got scolded right away.
Feng Qing forced a bitter smile and rubbed her temples, feeling a headache. "Go and take a look at the printed photos yourself. I really want to punch you."
Sheng Yan also took a look. After finding the problem, he quickly had the things removed. For a moment, he was at a loss.
How could this happen? It was completely different from what he had expected.
He had said he wanted to create a romantic and unforgettable proposal for Feng Qing, but now it seemed that it would indeed be unforgettable, but not in a good way.
He was dejected because of the failed surprise, and even felt like running away when he saw Feng Qing again.
Moreover, so many people in the company had seen it, and he even didn't really want to go to work.
After he had been in a slump for several days, Feng Qing couldn't help scolding him. "Why do you always look like this? I'm not in a funk, so why are you so aggrieved?"
Who was the more embarrassed person that day after all?
"I originally wanted to have a beautiful proposal, but the proposal failed, and I even made you lose face. I'm so sad."
"Is it more sad that the proposal failed or that I lost face?"
"I..." Sheng Yan took a deep breath and was about to answer, but after meeting Feng Qing's gaze, he slumped again. "Both are sad."
"Come on, it's been so many years. Don't prepare any more 'surprises'. Just live a normal life."
Feng Qing seemed very free - spirited and open - minded.
But Sheng Yan's heart sank to the bottom. Was she... rejecting him?
Feng Qing never mentioned this matter again, and Sheng Yan was too ashamed to bring it up. That embarrassing proposal seemed to have been erased from everyone's memory.
It only seemed to exist sporadically in the gossips.
Feng Qing didn't think it was a big deal not to get married. She wasn't the kind of person who needed marriage to gain a sense of security. Or perhaps it could be said that her sense of security didn't even come from Sheng Yan. She could completely enrich her spiritual world by herself.
As for Sheng Yan... She didn't know if she finally understood the difficult problem of 'love', but she could feel that she was reluctant to leave Sheng Yan.
If she had to leave Sheng Yan in a hurry again, she might not be as unrestrained as before.
Actually, marriage wasn't a necessity in her life. So what if Sheng Yan wasn't ready? So what if the proposal failed? It didn't seem to affect her mood.
It was also possible that there was a subconscious resistance to Sheng Qingran in her mind. Because she didn't want to see Sheng Qingran, she didn't want to marry Sheng Yan.
Although since her miscarriage, Sheng Yan seemed to have made his stance clear and chosen to stand by her side, blood was thicker than water, and some things weren't that easy to let go of.
She didn't force Sheng Yan to completely cut off ties with Sheng Qingran. Correspondingly, Sheng Yan couldn't ask her to get along peacefully with Sheng Qingran because of marriage or other things.
She would be very satisfied if they could achieve an ordinary kind of peace.
But Sheng Yan obviously didn't think as clearly as she did. The failed proposal and Feng Qing's suspected rejection made it hard for him to accept.
He loved Feng Qing and wanted to give her a lot, everything she could have, but Feng Qing didn't seem to care that much.
He didn't dare to conclude that Feng Qing didn't love him, but he was always insecure, feeling that Feng Qing might leave him tomorrow.
He wanted to trust Feng Qing, but he was just afraid.
This kind of fear had been with him since five years ago, making him toss and turn in the middle of the night, his heart in agony. He really didn't want to experience that again.
He had been in a bad mood for many days. Feng Qing also realized what the problem might be, so she always wanted to find a chance to clarify this with him.
But unfortunately, the two of them had been extremely busy for a while. By the time she finally had some free time, it was already after the beginning of spring.
She was not very sensitive to temperature. Usually, she stayed in the car. When she got out of the car, she was already in the company, so she didn't know what the weather was really like.
It wasn't until she saw the Beginning of Spring on the solar terms that she went outside to feel it. After shivering from the cold, she quickly hid back inside.
She had been away for too long and hadn't experienced the Beginning of Spring for so long that she didn't know that the wind on the Beginning of Spring was as sharp as a knife.
She and Sheng Yan still slept at their own homes. Recently, they didn't even go to and from work together, so she didn't find a chance to have a heart - to - heart talk with Sheng Yan.
It wasn't until she was free now. Looking at the time and finding that it wasn't too late, she sent a WeChat message to Sheng Yan.
Feng Qing: [I see you've been in a bad mood recently. How about going out for a stroll when you're free?]
Sheng Yan: [No, thanks. I've been quite busy recently.]
Feng Qing: [/Rolling eyes/ Don't I know whether you're busy or not? It's just a proposal. Why are you so dejected and avoiding it just because it failed? How come I didn't see you being dejected and scared when there were big things in the company?]
Sheng Yan took a long time to reply. The words 'The other person is typing...' appeared and disappeared repeatedly.
Sheng Yan: [It's different. The company isn't going to run away. As long as I do my best, there will be a good result.]
Feng Qing: [? So you mean I have feet and I'll run away?]
Feng Qing was even amused by him. So he was still afraid that she would leave.
She smiled and typed another message.
Feng Qing: [Whether we're married or not, I have feet. Marriage isn't a tool to bind me, and you shouldn't think that as long as we get married, I'll stay by your side obediently.]
There was another silence on the other end.
Feng Qing waited for a long time but didn't get a reply from Sheng Yan. She lay in bed and fell asleep with a dazed look in her eyes after just a few minutes.
Feng Qing suddenly woke up the next morning and found that she was still holding the phone in her hand. She looked at the chat box with Sheng Yan and found that he had withdrawn several messages, leaving only one.
Sheng Yan: [I just love you so much. I'm afraid you'll leave me again like before. As long as you don't leave, it doesn't matter whether we get married or not.]
He finally compromised.
Tsk, why did he seem so humble?
Feng Qing couldn't help but fall into deep thought. Did Sheng Yan still think that she was the kind of person who would do such a thing?
She sighed and shook her head. It was true that the things she had done when she was young were so stupid that they left such a deep shadow on him.
Alas, Feng Qing, you still owe quite a lot of debts.
Feng Qing was still sighing when suddenly there was a knock on the door. She got out of bed and went to open the door. She found Sheng Yan standing outside, carrying breakfast in his hand.
As soon as she opened the door and before she could say anything, Sheng Yan walked straight into Feng Qing's house with the breakfast. He went to the dining room quite familiarly and put the breakfast down.
Feng Qing was still standing at the door looking at him. She couldn't digest for a moment that the person who was so melancholy last night was now standing in her house with breakfast.
Sheng Yan saw that she didn't react for a long time and called out to her.
"Stop daydreaming. Come and have breakfast."