Feng Qing didn't say a word. She kept sizing up Sheng Yan's expression, making sure that he was really out of temper. It seemed that he had coaxed himself well last night.
However, there seemed to be a bit more weariness in his eyes. He probably didn't sleep well last night.
She couldn't help but wonder if the proposal was really that important to him.
Actually, it was not she who needed this sense of security, but him.
She ate breakfast quietly without saying a word, and Sheng Yan also kept silent for a long time.
Finally, when they were almost done with breakfast, Feng Qing spoke up.
"I don't think our relationship must be maintained by marriage. But if this is the sense of security you want, I can promise you."
"But I also have conditions. If you can cut off relations with Sheng Qingran, don't invite him to the wedding, and no longer regard him as your father after marriage. No matter what happens to him in the future, it has nothing to do with you, and you automatically give up everything related to the Sheng family."
"Then we can get married."
She wasn't always indifferent. Sheng Qingran was like a thorn in her heart. She couldn't forgive all that Sheng Qingran had done to the Feng family. Her parents, her child, and the fact that she was living alone in this world now were all thanks to Sheng Qingran.
Sheng Yan stared into her eyes all the time, hoping to see a glimmer of new possibility in them. He was also very clear about what his father had done to the Feng family. He could easily cut off all ties with the Sheng family from then on. But as for cutting off the father - son relationship, a thing with a vague sense of boundary, he couldn't admit to the outside world that he was no longer a member of the Sheng family.
He wasn't hesitating because he didn't want to do it, but because he didn't know how to do it.
In Feng Qing's eyes, his attitude was quite obvious. Although it seemed normal that he didn't immediately agree, the hesitation in his eyes actually exposed his true feelings.
He was unwilling.
Feng Qing didn't feel disappointed. Instead, she smiled. She got up from the dining table, took a tissue to wipe her hands.
"If you think you can't make a choice between me and your father, then it's also a choice for me. I won't force you."
She threw the tissue into the trash can, then turned around and walked towards the room. "I'm going to change clothes and get ready for work. You clean up the dining table."
Feng Qing left gracefully, while Sheng Yan covered his forehead in self - isolation again. Obviously, his attitude just now didn't satisfy her.
It was his fault. Why did he hesitate for just a moment? He should have agreed first and then thought about how to do it later.
Now it was even further from the proposal.
The two of them were not very intimate at the company. Occasionally, Sheng Yan would go to Feng Qing's office to find her, but Feng Qing was still as cold as ever.
Previously, when Sheng Qingran came to the company and scolded Feng Qing, there had already been gossips in the company. Not long after, Feng Qing didn't come back to the company for a while because of the miscarriage. Without the main character, the gossips gradually died down.
However, Sheng Yan's failed proposal not long ago brought up some old matters again. Feng Qing only found out what she was like in others' eyes after hearing what others said.
She rarely used the restrooms on other floors. But just when the meeting was about to end, she felt a bit uncomfortable in her stomach. Worried about soiling her pants, she went to the restroom first.
Fortunately, it was just a stomachache and she didn't soil her pants. Just as she was about to flush the toilet, she suddenly heard someone talking outside, and they were talking about her.
"Wasn't it said before that General Manager Feng was already married and her child was several years old? Why did General Manager Sheng still propose to General Manager Feng?"
"We can't understand the affairs of the rich. General Manager Sheng is young, handsome and rich. If I were her, I would definitely abandon my husband and child for General Manager Sheng."
"She's not that stupid. After all, General Manager Feng doesn't seem to be short of such things."
"How do you know that the rich don't pursue the immoral feeling of an extramarital affair?"
As soon as she finished speaking, the sound of the flush immediately rang out. She immediately dared not make a sound. After exchanging a look with her companion in the mirror, she didn't even dare to blink and stared at the door that made the sound.
Feng Qing emerged from behind the door. She walked expressionlessly to the mirror to wash her hands. Seeing the two of them almost in a daze, Feng Qing glanced at them in the mirror.
They immediately greeted her obediently and respectfully. "General Manager Feng."
Feng Qing nodded slightly, as if she hadn't heard anything just now, then turned around and walked out. The girl who had been gossiping about her and Sheng Yan didn't know what she was thinking and hurriedly chased after her.
"General Manager Feng!"
Feng Qing stopped walking and slowly turned around to look at her. But the girl was scared by Feng Qing's sharp eyes.
"If you're afraid of me, why do you still gossip about me behind my back?"
She had never really understood such people since she was a child. Their fear wasn't real fear, and their apologies weren't real apologies either.
It seemed that they were afraid this time, but actually they would still do it next time. What was the meaning of such behavior?
"I..."
"Okay, I don't have time to listen to your explanations. I won't remember you just because of this one thing. You'd better go back to work earlier."
After saying that, Feng Qing turned around and went to the elevator and returned to her own office.
She didn't completely forget about this matter. She was also seriously reflecting. Was this really what she was like in others' eyes?
Sheng Yan was young and rich, while she was already married and had a child. If she was divorced and got together with Sheng Yan, it would be a second marriage. If she wasn't divorced, it would be an extramarital affair.
No wonder Sheng Qingran said at that time that she was unworthy of Sheng Yan. It turned out that besides the fact that Feng Shengyang was her father, there was this reason.
It turned out that this was what others thought.
What about Sheng Yan? Didn't he have such thoughts deep in his heart?
Even though Sheng Yan knew that Cathy wasn't her child, the fact that she had married Lawrence was undeniable. Everyone knew that she had been married to someone else. What about Sheng Yan, who was openly with her? Would he care about others' opinions?
In the past when she hadn't considered so much, had Sheng Yan also endured such gossips when she wasn't aware? When the young masters got together, would someone also use such things to ridicule him and make him lose face?
All these might exist, but he had never said a word.
If the outside environment that she had once ignored was like this, she could imagine how stupid it seemed in the outside world for Sheng Yan to give up the shares of Shengshi and come to Fengxing.
Sheng Yan had never mentioned these things to her. Before, she always thought that she was the one who had it the hardest. But now she suddenly realized that it was Sheng Yan, who was with such a self, that was under the greatest pressure.
No wonder Sheng Yan always hoped to get a sense of security from her. It turned out that their future had always been so difficult.
There was a photo of the two of them on Feng Qing's desk, which Sheng Yan had stuffed there forcefully. In the photo, Sheng Yan was affectionately putting his arm around her shoulder, smiling brightly at the camera, while there was only a faint smile on her face, and it seemed that this little smile was piled up with effort.
Feng Qing stared blankly at the photo and reached out to take it closer. Sheng Yan often seemed like a child in front of her, but she seemed to have never asked him a question.
Sheng Yan, over the years, even if it was just for a moment, have you ever regretted meeting me?